CHAPTER 2013 page 19 of 365 Peace, Strength and Courage
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Yesterday was a very good day. As usual morning arrived early awaking me with a gentle whisper.
Morning, as she is known to me sat back quietly and patiently watched as I drifted back to the warmth of my slumber. After twenty-five minutes, I was awake and refreshed. As I lay there in the comfort and warmth I must admit, I did consider not getting out of bed, but bailing on work, but then commitment entered the room lifted the corner of the bed sheet and pulled them back. Without a word she sat down beside me on the side of the bed and “poof” the thought was gone.
So, as I drove into the office I begin to think about the number of situations we live in yet possess little to no control over in our daily lives. A quiet smile crept across my face, because I knew that this decision was my own and on my terms. I hadn’t awaken in a cold sweat of panic, I wasn’t even losing sleep over my decision. The truth was although I had my concerns, I was also resolute in my decision and prepared to close this chapter of my life.
This job from the very beginning had felt as if I was shoving my size 8 foot into a miniature size 4…it wasn’t a good fit and as time passed the obvious pain and daily discomfort had created more than it’s share of callous on my spirit. Understand, I did not feel as if I were leaving empty handed. I had acquired a profound respect for the clients who entered through our doors, many embarrassed and ashamed, but in need. I felt that I had again acquired tools that would be welcomed additions to my toolbag.
This morning was like any other, except that I arrived to a box of peppermint candy canes and a sweet ice tea on my desk which my coworker had so thoughtfully purchased. Several of my coworkers (and my supervisor) surprised me by taking me to lunch with me. I had accomplished my goal of cleaning all the previous tenants junk out, wiped everything down with Clorox wipes and completed my final work task prior to days end. Throughout the day, I sang a number of my favorite childhood songs many which seem to come from Sesame Street. I started the sing song with Sing, topped with a dash of Mah na Mah na and concluded the day with a showing stopping performance belting Hakuna Matata as I danced around the office inciting laughter and hugs.
Live life on your terms and never be afraid to say good-bye….Hakuna Matata
Never be afraid to bring something that does not fulfill, strengthen or empower you to a close. Don’t sit by and allow yourself to be drained empty, close that chapter and start anew.
There are far too many of us selling ourselves short by staying in unfulfilling relationships, at dead end jobs, or _______ (fill in the blank) and these are the very things that will pull us under as we continue to be slapped around repeatedly by endless tides.
Please, don’t misunderstand me this isn’t supposed to be easy, anything worth effort rarely is and, after all, you’ve built “it” up, made “it” bigger than life, given “it” your power…ask yourself, really is the “it” all that?
If life is to be lived without regret than you must at some point be willing to fly without a parachute, without a safety net. Go ahead, take a deep breath, jump off the high dive and yes, you should expect to get wet, drenched, maybe even swallow a gallon or more. However, if you’re willing to fight, kick and kick some more…you will survive. And that is the point of it all.
Be the Phoenix in the flame, the heroine of your story, the role model instead of the model, you are your story. All that is required now is for you believe in you!
A concept that I wish every woman and young girl could grasp and understand.
“It’s not special if you share it with everyone.”
Surely, the last thing you’d want is to be left with…an empty “cookie jar.”
The value is in you and you are more than just a “cookie jar!”